A few weeks ago I was feeling constricted. I was worried about money and not having enough. I felt as if everything made me think of it and my lack of it. I had just finished reading Jen Sincero’s book You are a Badass at Making Money and truly believed that within the next few months I’d be raking it in. I’m not sure how but I was confident that it would happen.

Around the same time, I finished reading The Big Leap: Conquer your Hidden Fear and Take Life to the Next Level by Gay Hendricks. It was in that book that I found the quote which I’ve been using during my meditation practice.

I expand in abundance, success, and love every day as I inspire those around me to do the same. – page 156

I combined the can-do attitude of You are a Badass at Making Money with my daily meditation (which is fairly new). I started to feel great! Invincible. That anything is possible with my focus and dedication. And then, that icky feeling of not having enough money would find its way in.

In response to the feeling of scarcity, I’d repeat my new mantra (thank you Gay Hendricks). In response to repeating it, I’d feel a bit stronger and the feeling of scarcity would scamper off.

Around that same time, one of the action items I made with my coach was to begin to donate regularly to a charity. Coming up with the charity wasn’t hard – Michael and I have always said that one day we’d like to set up a scholarship, so I knew that education was the area to turn. Working in development I knew that not all donors start by giving a scholarship, they tend to start with smaller donations. I decided that we’d begin by providing lunch to a child. The commitment was seventy dollars a month, so I set up the direct deposit, took a deep breath to push scarcity away, repeated my mantra and clicked submit.

Wow. I felt so good! Suddenly I was making a difference and I knew that one of our daughter’s friends could be impacted by this donation. That this lunch could have an impact on their education. Suddenly, my feeling of scarcity, of not having enough, was diminished by the fact that we do have three meals a day, that we live in a surplus and have enough to share.

I continued to do my meditation, feel good about the donation, and the feeling of scarcity subsided.

And then this happened…

Michael came home and told me that his gym membership had decreased by seventy dollars monthly. Yes, the exact amount I had committed to for the lunch program! I’m not saying that it happened because of my meditation practice or because of the books I read, or if it’s Karma. But I do think it’s pretty weird, and amazing!